Every year on September 11th I don't expect to be so sad, but at some point throughout the day I find myself holding back the tears. Every year I wonder how the family members of the victims are dealing with their loss. And like you, I think back to where I was, who I was with and how I felt. It is not every day that we are reminding of feelings we had years ago. These feelings will probably never change for me. I imagine being an old lady and still feeling an overwhelming sadness on September 11th.